I have some childhood experiences losing to/got beaten by girls that were taller and stronger than me. As embarrassing as it was back then, at some point it turned into a fetish about taller girls. In 9th grade i challenged a girl who i had a secret crush on (she was almost a head taller than me, six feet maybe, she was cute and the quiet/shy type) for an armwrestling match ...she was a lot stronger and i quickly lost in front of the whole class.
Two years before, the same girl kind of beat me up for mocking her (actually i earned that), got a lot of respect for her after that
Later she used to lift and carry a guy around whom
she had a crush on...lucky guy, and he was even shorter than me.