I was 5 or 6 years old. At that age, I did not know about the concept of sexuality, but I started to feel ashamed and like people of the opposite gender. There was a girl who was older than me and whom I liked. As far as I remember, I used to be jealous of her and I used to think about impressing her before I went to sleep. One day, while playing childish games with her, she wanted to go through the door and I said I couldn't let her. I said that because I wanted to get her attention by being annoying. She carried me away from the door and continued on her way. I was very impressed by this, and I went back and repeated the same sentence. After repeating this cycle once or twice, she asked me if I wanted it to get myself carried. I remember being embarrassed over this question. This is my oldest memory
Now I'm 21 years old btw
