I know I'm not self loathing. Everybody has their kink, it's just a matter of keeping perspective. On the surface, I'm about as normal as it gets, and I don't spend my days jumping on women's backs or jerking off to images of cradle carries.
I'm comfortable with myself and this fetish, but I definitely don't let the world in on it. Just like I don't let the world in on private conversations I have with friends and family about life. This is just something that arouses me. For some people, it's feet. For others, it's porn. For others, it's playing video games. It's all about keeping it in perspective. I'd even go as far as being in a Lift and Carry video, and it STILL wouldn't consume my life. I've got too much other fun stuff going on. Variety is the spice of life.
I don't think deleting your account is going to stop you from getting on the internet and checking this stuff out. I've been looking at this kind of thing for years, yet I just came to this forum, so the forum obviously isn't the only outlet.
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