delete my account please.

[takeitorleaveit]

i would like the admins to delete my account and permanently block me. i realize that my l&c fetish is something that i will always have, but i cannot let it consume me. it will be fetish that i will share with my future wife, who i know will love and accept me for it. over the past few months i have realized that this fetish can consume and individual. when i get my own life together (i don't mean financially or socially either, i mean come to terms with who i am), i know i will come back to terms with this fetish...but in a different way.

i've been a member of this particular community since it's virtual inception and feel that this is a group of nothing more than self loathing people. i used to deny that i had a problem, but i do. i'm not running from my fetish that i have been given, but simply taking control of it. i want to wish well to all the people that i have had the privilege to talk to over the years. we are all a unique group of people who share a unique idea. there is nothing wrong with that, but i don't want to let it define me personally.

i don't really think i ever made any real friends through here, but i wish all of you the best in your own personal lives regardless. this is probably one of the hardest things ive ever had to do considering i worked so hard to get to vip***, but please delete my account admins. i wont let my fetish define or consume my life. i give my respect and well wishes to all of you.

takeitorleaveit (chris)

[tjw1971]

Still, please don't group all of us into "self loathing people". I'm certainly not in that category. My life may be a little more stressful and busy than I'd like, but I'm generally ok with it. I realize I have my "quirks" and the L&C fetish is one of them ... but I see no problem with that either.

Actually, I think younger women are getting more and more likely to work out for "strength" vs. just "toning", so all of this will get a little more "mainstream" one of these days.....

[Dombazz]

I think you could keep your account open, so that you can visit everytime you feel for it, becasue here it's always someone you can talk with about this fetish here.

But you do as you want, and I hope you find your perfect wife.

Take care, //Dombazz

[dendrin]

It seems you're set on this so I won't try to talk you out of it. We have always enjoyed your direct style of banter here, but will help you do whats best for you. Unless I here otherwise will disable the account in a day.

[Liftluvver]

"Self-loathing?" Speak for yourself, takeitorleaveit. I think you're doing the right thing for yourself though. I did that a couple of years ago, before re-joining with a new persoective, not so totally immersed in this fetish.

Good luck with finding yourself, too!

[Leobor]

I had those pauses too. In last couple of months I have a feeling I will do it once again. Anyway, over the past time I think LC weakens at me. I remember forst time I saw LC photo on net I got myself wet (if you know what I am mean), but now - it is not a case. Maybe I am getting more mature and maybe LC will die at me over the time (I am not saying the others which still have it are not mature).

Take care Chris!

[The Lifted One]

I know I'm not self loathing. Everybody has their kink, it's just a matter of keeping perspective. On the surface, I'm about as normal as it gets, and I don't spend my days jumping on women's backs or jerking off to images of cradle carries.

I'm comfortable with myself and this fetish, but I definitely don't let the world in on it. Just like I don't let the world in on private conversations I have with friends and family about life. This is just something that arouses me. For some people, it's feet. For others, it's porn. For others, it's playing video games. It's all about keeping it in perspective. I'd even go as far as being in a Lift and Carry video, and it STILL wouldn't consume my life. I've got too much other fun stuff going on. Variety is the spice of life.

I don't think deleting your account is going to stop you from getting on the internet and checking this stuff out. I've been looking at this kind of thing for years, yet I just came to this forum, so the forum obviously isn't the only outlet.

[Nateliftee]

Good luck Takeitorleaveit! If anyone is the "self loathing" one around here it is me (or was me) as I admit that I am one of the most (if not the most)"open" members here and have revealed some awful things about myself in the past. Now that I have a job and got a HUGE raise, I watch more cable TV and have less time to come to this forum and post and have been a relatively "happy" member ever since. You do what is best for you and we all hope to see you again sometime so don't forget about us.

[carrychris2009]

although not "self loathing" myself. If that is your perception of people in this forum and those into this fetish, I believe how you perceive the room is your perogative.(just speaking for myself)

your input has been very valuable in here and contributions as well.
and I understand you have to do what is best for yourself. So i wish you the best and wish you are successful in your quest in life and your objectives.

take care and good luck.

carrychris

[phoneman]

Originally Posted by Nateliftee

Good luck Takeitorleaveit! If anyone is the "self loathing" one around here it is me (or was me) as I admit that I am one of the most (if not the most)"open" members here and have revealed some awful things about myself in the past. Now that I have a job and got a HUGE raise, I watch more cable TV and have less time to come to this forum and post and have been a relatively "happy" member ever since. You do what is best for you and we all hope to see you again sometime so don't forget about us.

I am very happy to see you say that (OR WAS ME). That is great. Also happy about your raise. Obviously your employer appreciates you and I would imagine that you are a great employee that deserves the raise.

I am not thrilled that this means that you will be here less, but so be it.