A long time ago I explained the lift and carry fetish on an old lift and carry site. I also explained why some prefer ff to the other stuff. Years later I have discovered that my theories were spot on, by reading literature on the subject and engaging in discussions with psychologists and sexologists.
In short, it is abnormal to NOT have fetishes. Everyone has them, even those who claim they don't like Michele Bachmann :tease: The only thing is that depending on our fetish we reveal parts of our personalities.

That is why we producers do custom videos for fetish collectors... then you can get exactly what you want to see...

Well Junkies after my last shift as a temp in one place we went for drinks, this older man who likes Asians (I'm Chinese) spoke to me about things and as he's into eastern culture I told him about the Shaolin monks, their superhuman feats on stage, I told him how one would do a handstand and get struck by another with a stick right in the crotch:scared:

Most people would grimace but he said he wished he was there as that kinda stuff is a turn on for him! Well I did reveal to him my fetish at a later point but it got the ball rolling him telling a stranger about his quaint desires.... Generally I don't tell many people and usually not anyone I'm very close to. I know of one girl from an online game that's bisexual and is also into the carry thing would you believe :)

As for searching for new carry material, I used to do that in a library when I didn't have home internet! Or on other people's computers, a risk as they could find out what I did... Much of my browsing time on this forum in the past was on a public computer, yes I'm naughty! (I favoured computers that had vacant neighbouring PCs of course)

I don't feel any shame about this orientation.It's so sexy to have a secret that I only tell the women I'm with.It's also a very fun fantasy.I hope you can find women smart and funny enough to understand that this is harmless.