OK, so this is super interesting to me. I wish I knew where it came from, but it's great to see that my experiences are like so many of you. A lot of you are saying it started incredibly young, before puberty for sure. Some say they were born with it. That makes sense somehow.
All I know is some of my earliest memories playing with toys, I liked the idea that the smallest ones were the strongest. At that point, it had nothing to do with gender. At some point, I became fascinated with lifting and being lifted by other kids, again gender not being important. I even got my little brother (almost four years younger) to bring it up because other kids my age might wonder why I was asking. I think my favorites were when smaller kids could pick up bigger kids, and somewhere along the way, the idea that girls could lift boys.
When it really got started was... I don't know, I was probably a preteen I guess? I randomly had a dream about a girl lifting me under my armpits and tossing me, and it was just incredible. I don't have a clue why. I thought about it a lot, and I found that I enjoyed it more when girls lifted me in real life, more than I used to, and differently than I used to. Eventually of course, I looked online to see if anyone was doing this, and what do you know - a bunch of other people just like me. How weird.
|