Have you ever wished that you didn't have this fetish?

[benchwarmer25]

There have been several times where I wished I didn't have this fetish. I have felt embarrassed and not like a real man. I've tried multiple times to stop thinking about L&C or watching L&C videos and sometimes have been able to go a few months without it, but usually what happens is I'll see a clip in a movie/show or I'll have a dream related to L&C and the next thing I know I am binging L&C content. Lately I've been trying to just accept the fact that this fetish is an integral part of who I am as a person, and all in all I think it is better than being addicted to drugs or alcohol.